to my precious darlings,
So sorry I haven't catched up with everyone. I'm tied up in my schedule; work is getting into my veins and I don't have much air to breathe lately. Finally I gotten back to let you know what's going on..
And what's going on is really.. really.. undescribable (spelt right?!)
Okay; I browsed my inbox today.. Just casually I went "back in time" before 3 months ago to the 18th of August.. which was the day I first emailed to my guy
And I was surprised to see something that touched my heart so much. It touched my heart and I don't know what to tell you all...
There was concept. There was style. There was an interest in me.. There was fun.. There was.. Him!!! And it looked like it began very good!!! It begun perfect!
And it was once in a while. Not everyday emailings. But today? (nowadays) it's blooody intense!!
And I am speechless regarding that. He actually shown me he is interested. I'll use "he is" and not past tense; cause..
Now my explanation would briefly explain what's going on..:
He showed me all the signs.. He was totally inviting.. And me?
My stupid fearful side of rejection controlled over me???
No reason he wouldn't do anything now!!
He must have figured out I want him as a friend; so he stopped.
But the flame still exists!! It does.. And now? I don't know how to retrieve it back...
I tried something simple today; by reminding him some old email.. some story he wanted to share with me.. I reminded him of that story and tonight when I get home and I check my inbox; he was surprised!!! I can't tell how surprised he was through an email. But there was the beginning of "oh!!"
Which means I need to work so hard.. so damn hard to show him that I want him in the same way he wanted me. And ferom now on; I would flow!!! Really.. I would flow with him!!
If he offers his arm without saying anything; I'd hold him!
Better be outside than in his home
Anyways, I'm glad I browsed back in time in my inbox..
Glad to find THERE IS SOMETHING!!
Now I'll be taking things more "serious" and go all "flowy" with him..
I couldn't wait to get back home telling all of you about this.
xoxoxoxoxo




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Sorrow comes with silent tears (Sirenia)
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The most successful serial killer of all time, is time itself.
Just thought Id depress you.
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-Christine
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As The Moon Rises Each Night, Bringing Us Night Over Day, All We Can Do Is Stare And Howl.
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~I mean that with all sincerity.
~I hated Edward Cullen before he went vamp.
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